long time no see

wahh sudah lama ga ngepost..

kemaren2 terjadi kekacauan password untuk blog ini, dan ga ada waktu *ujian ujian*, akhirnya terlantar deh, hehe.

not much to say, sih.
pengangguran macam begini.. ga ada cerita yang menarik ah.
sekolah kagak, kuliah juga belom jelas. haah. sedih.

berharap sesuatu yg mustahil, kyk snow in summer terjadi. ga mungkin yah. haah. ga jelas nih.

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kemaren *ato tadi malem, tepatnya*, terjadi perdebatan, ato ummm berantem dengan seseorang yang disayang.
rasanya emang paling ga enak ya berantem sama orang yg disayang. apalagi lewat telpon.

pengen rasanya ngasi tau, betapa sakit rasanya denger kata2nya itu.
pengen rasanya benci sama dia, karna dia kok sampe tega begitu.
pengen rasanya kesel setengah mati, marah2 sampe cape.
semua, agar dia tau gimana ga enaknya. gimana rasanya sakitnya, capenya, sedihnya, ngadepin dia.
tapi ga bisa.
yg ada akhirnya malah ngalah dan membiarkan dia mlakukan yg dia suka. yg dia inginkan.

mungkin lagu yg tepat menggambarkan tadi malem itu kyk berikut:

I was wrong, you were right
A day in december can be so nice
Wishing and hoping just won't do
I won't come closer to you

*Let's all hope for winter
Winter cools us down
The brightness of springtime
makes you, makes me
feel down*

All at once or nothing at all
I couldn't help feeling so small

In the end it's all the same
I won't come
closer to you
I know i want to,
but could i really do
when decisions are made by you


"hope for winter" by Club 8


above all, i hope we'll turn out okay. no matter how offended i was by things he said. no matter how tired he is of dealing with me.

*masih sayang kamu kok. =]