i want my own Bumblebee..

wah wah wah udah lama ya ga ngisi blog..
lagi ngerasa males sih, pengennya baca2 blog orang aja..

anyways, what compelled me to write again adalah, apalagi kalo bukan Transformers: Revenge of The Fallen..

oke, buat yang berkomentar kalo itu film anak kecil soalnya plot utamanya cuman robot jahat ngelawan robot baik trus robot baik yang menang, just shut up. i still like it! :p

i want my own Bumblebee!!

oh, reviewnya, tentu oke.. cuman pangsanya agak ga jelas, berhubung filmnya kan dari kartun, tentang robot2an, pas liburan sekolah -- kesimpulan: pasti banyak anak kecil yang nonton.
menurut gue kok banyak adegan dewasa yang kayaknya blom pantes ditonton anak kecil deh..
paling itu aja sih kurangnya.

fyi, setiap ada adegan mesra2an Shia LeBaouf (or however it's supposed to be spelled) sama Megan Fox, Ichsan bergidik ngeri gara2 gosip kalo Megan Fox itu transgender.

btw, berkaitan dengan topik tersebut, gue ada cerita!
di suatu siang yang terik, gue yang terkuras tenaganya akibat mengerjakan ujian yang susah, sedang duduk lunglai dalam mobil yang melaju pulang.
tiba2 aja, di daerah jalan juanda depok, sekelebat pemandangan di luar jendela kaca mobil gue membuat gue terhenyak..

gue ngeliat ada 2 cowo, ato tepatnya sih dua PRIA karna keliatan kayak om2, boncengan naik motor. dan yang duduk di belakang, memeluk erat si cowo yang bawa motor, trus dagunya tuh di bahunya yang bawa motor. motornya melaju pelan dan mereka ngobrol sambil liat2an dengan tatapan2 super mesra.

gue yakin itu bukan cuma tipuan mata gue doang.
kemesraan itu bener2 keliatan walau gue cuma sepintas liat di jalan.

yea, well, hak pribadi masing2 orang lah ya mo berhubungan sama siapa seperti apa juga, lagian gue juga pernah liat2 cowo2 yang mesra2 gitu di mall2, tapi entah kenapa liat 2 orang di motor itu bikin gue kaget banget!

mungkin karna pulang2 pusing karna ujian, tapi kenapa pemandangannya malah begitu ya.. hm hm..

some of what i listen to

i like like like listening to music.
there's not a lot that i don't like to hear, except maybe dangdut.
i have no idea why, but i just want to barf listening to it. sorry.

anyways, biasanya kan kalo ada satu album gitu paling lo cuman suka beberapa lagu aja, nah ini beberapa album yang bener2 nyaris semua lagunya gue suka.

oke, emang ga penting banget, tapi gue bosen!
pengen aja nulis2 ga jelas!
*rolling around*

so, first one, album Unplugged-nya The Corrs..

song listnya:
Only When I Sleep,
What Can I Do,
Radio,
Toss The Feathers,
Everybody Hurts,
Dreams,
Runaway,
Forgiven Not Forgotten,
At Your Side,
Little Wing,
No Frontiers,
Queen of Hollywood,
Old Town (This Boy Is Cracking Up),
(Lough) Erin Shore,
So Young.

tadinya gue biasa aja sama ni band, tapi pas denger album ini sukaaaa banget.
semuanya easy listening, aransemennya bagus, mereka berempat ngebagi suaranya pas banget, seimbang. yaa begitulah.

okay, so next, Meteora-nya Linkin Park..

song list:
Foreword,
Don't Stay,
Somewhere I Belong,
Lying From You,
Hit The Floor,
Easier To Run,
Faint,
Figure.09,
Breaking The Habit,
From The Inside,
Nobody's Listening,
Session,
Numb.

ah, keren2.. gue inget banget ni album waktu gue SMP. mungkin triak2nya pas sama teenage angst yang lagi gue rasain, hahahaha. masa muda yang indah.. *???*
waktu study tour kelas 3 SMP ke pangandaran, sepanjang jalan gue dengerin ni album bolak-balik.

nah di masa2 album ini keluar, LP konser di jakarta, dan gue nonton.
i had a blast!!
emang nyaris persis kayak cd-nya gitu sih mereka mainnya, tapi gue tetep puas.
sepupu gue yang nonton konsernya bareng agak heran kok gue apal lagu2nya.
hellooo, jakarta-pangandaran bolak-balik dengerin satu albumnya doang ya jelas apal. hahaha.

next favorite gue, The Place You Have Come To Fear The Most-nya Dashboard Confessional..

song list:
The Brilliant Dance,
Screaming Infidelities,
The Best Deceptions,
This Ruined Puzzle,
Saints And Sailors,
The Good Fight,
Standard Lines,
Again I Go Unnoticed,
The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most,
This Bitter Pill.


pas banget gue dengerin album ini, gue lagi kecewa sama seseorang, jadi soundtrack yang pas. hahahaha. kenapa jadi curhat colongan ya?
kalo lagi seneng, dengerin album ini doesn't work at all. it makes you instantly gloomy.
jadi didengerinnya kalo lagi sedih2 aja.
namanya juga emoh *emo-h-tional*.

next, Tchaikovsky..
i've always liked classical music, tapi gue paling suka Tchaikovsky.

um, album ini ada 4 disc, jadi song listnya agak panjang..

Disc 1:
Swan Lake Ballet Suite: Scene, Waltz, Swan Dance, Scene, Czardas;
Symphony No. 6 "Pathetique": Adagio; Allegro non troppo, Allegro con grazia, Allegro Molto Vivace, Finale; Adagio Lamentoso; Andante.

Disc 2:
1812 Overture,
Andante - Allegro Con anima,
Andante Cantabile Con alcuna, licenza, moderato, con anima,
Valse, Allegro Moderato,
Finale; Andante Maestoso - Allegro Vivace.

Disc 3:
The Nutcracker: Overture, March, Dance of the Sugar Plum Fairy, Russian Dance, Arabian Dance, Chinese Dance, Dance of the Flutes, Waltz of the Flowers;
Symphony No. 4 In F Minor: Andante sostenuto, Andantino in modo di canzone, Scherzo: Pizzicato, Finale - Allegro con fuoco.

Disc 4:
Cappricio Italien, Op. 45,
Marche Slave, Op. 31,
Hamlet Overture,
Romeo and Juliet, Fantasy Overture.

haahh.. banyakk.
tapi, gue palinggg suka Marche Slave. kalo mau ujian dengerin itu enak banget.
yang ada, pas jawab soal gue terngiang2 lagu itu doang, pelajaran nguap semua, hahaha.

ok, next.. Parachutes-nya Coldplay..

song list:
Don't Panic,
Shiver,
Spies,
Sparks,
Yellow,
Trouble,
Parachutes,
High Speed,
We Never Change,
Everything's Not Lost.

sebelom albumnya Coldplay yang Viva La Vida keluar, ini album mereka favorite gue.
ga tau kenapa, i'm just so attracted to these songs..
bingung mo ngomentarin apa, hehe. aneh emang.


next.. still the same band, Viva La Vida from Coldplay..

song list:
Life In Technicolor,
Cemeteries of London,
Lost!,
42,
Lovers In Japan/Reign of Love,
Yes (hidden: Chinese Sleep Chant),
Viva La Vida,
Violet Hill,
Strawberry Swing,
Death And All His Friends (hidden: The Escapist).

sukaa.. apalagi pas 42 jadi latarnya opening scenenya C.S.I.. pas banget! kayaknya sebelomnya gue pernah ngepost tentang ini..
oh well.


next, We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things by Jason Mraz..

song list:
Make It Mine,
I'm Yours,
Lucky,
Butterfly,
Live High,
Love for a Child,
Details in the Fabric,
Coyotes,
Only Human,
The Dynamo of Volition,
If It Kills Me,
A Beautiful Mess.

waktu dia main di jakarta di java jazz festival, gue nonton dan gue tambah suka. puas banget nontonnya. meskipun rameee. hfff.

udah ah segitu aja. cape. hehe.
i think it's time that i should study.

oh dear, i fear..

tiba2 aja udah minggu2 ujian!!
what happened?
waktu berlari begitu cepat!

tapi tetep aja, gue ga blajar2! =P
now who's fault is that?

please doctor, cure my laziness!

doctor:
oh dear, i fear..
it's not laziness you suffer from, it's stupidness!

42

Those who are dead are not dead

They’re just living in my head

And since I fell for that spell I am living there as well

Oh..

Time is so short and I’m sure

There must be something more

You thought you might be a ghost

You thought you might be a ghost

You didn’t get to heaven but you made it close

You didn’t get to heaven but you made it close

42 - Coldplay

udah punya lagu ini beberapa lama di iTunes gue, tapi kemaren pas nonton C.S.I. season baru, lagu ini jadi lagu pembukanya gitu.

pas banget sm adegannya, orang2 di bis kayak pada pulang kerja, tampang2nya cape. KEREEEENNNN.

skarang gue lagi ngerjain proposal sama tugas PBL (jadi sekretaris, lagi2, hmmff)..

oke, ga kerasa beban sih, ga pengen ngeluh juga, tapi OH MANNNN..

i'm so stumped!!

bener2 lagi ga terinspirasi buat nulis apa2an, masa bikin tujuan di proposal aja gue bingung mo berkata-kata manis macem apa.

akhirnya nyetel iTunes kenceng2 berharap termotivasi, ujung2nya malah browsing ga jelas.

ahhh.. memang hidup ini.. penuh godaan.

besok masuk jam 7 pagi, skarang jam stengah 10 dan gue belom mandi lho.. *nada bangga yg aneh*

padahal rambut udah lengket begini.. *klarifikasi: bukan karna gue jorok, tadi siang emang panas banget!*

doakan tugas2 gue selesai yaaaa..

*pergi ke pojokan dan nangis merenungi nasib*

lagi2 racauan aneh

hmm.. blog ini sempet ditelantarkan untuk sementara, maaf maaf.
not much to say why; let's just say i hit an uninspiring period of my life.

semester 3 gue udah berakhir, sebenernya dengan kurang memuaskan sih, mehehehe.
i felt like i lost reason of being there and trying.
jadi usaha gue setengah2 gitu.
moga2 sih semester 4 kinerja belajar gue (halah) bisa membaik, amin.

pasti ada lah alesan Allah menetapkan nasib gue di jurusan ini, entah apa alesan itu.
so, i shouldn't be complaining.
i just had a rough semester, and i'm moving forward from it.
hopefully better.
HAS to be better.
i gotta DO better.

sigh.

lagian kalo gue ga di jurusan gue yang skarang, mo masuk apaan lagi gue?
seni: jelas2 ga bakat.
ekonomi: HALAH! ini lebih2 ga bakatnya.
fisip: i avoid any future career that my parents were in.
sastra: hello. i couldn't even learn spanish properly. and people say spanish is supposed to be easy if you can do english!
teknik: i so suck at physics!
fmipa: i'm probably only passably good in biology, i suck at the other sciences.

ya ya, gue tau gue slalu bilang kalo cita2 gue jadi ahli forensik, i just didn't thought that i'd have to be a medical doctor first.
tapi orang2 bilang jadi dokter tu kuncinya rajin baca aja, dan baca cepet dan banyak tu mungkin satu2nya bakat yang gue punya, jadi main pede aja gue masuk kedokteran. (gue tau ini alasan yang aneh)

let me tell you something now.

the journey to become a doctor totally sucks!
no pain, no gain, literally!
apaan tuh kalo orang bilang gengsi masuk kedokteran, itu mah buat nyeneng2in dan nyemangatin diri sendiri biar siksaannya ga begitu kerasa. =D
no wonder some doctors lose their compassion along the way, they must've lost it in their educational years.

anyways.

tetep harus semangat!

ga usah mikirin nanti bisa nyelametin nyawa2 orang, yang penting ga DO juga udah cihui!
God, you must have SOME reason you put me here, this is the (probably) right path for me!

semester 4, i'm coming!

but of course i have to take a break.
i appreciate immensely this short vacation.
i get to sleep in!
you know how i hate waking up so early.
and i get to sit around at home doing nothing!
you know how i love doing that.
(ujung2nya tetep setia pada kemalasan)

unimportant updates

yah, berhubung udah lama ya ga aktif di blog ini, mo update apa2 kok jadi males..

since i don't know what else to write, gue update film aja ya..

actually, uda banyak banget film yang gue tonton sejak review terakhir..

but, in tribute to my old friend - laziness - i'll just post about the recent ones..

okay, first one up is Twilight..

biasanya gue ga terlalu suka yang digila-gilai nyaris semua orang, misalnya Harry Potter.

i'm just not interested in fads.

tapi, buat Twilight, gue uda lama tau tentang bukunya, baca sedikit2, sekelumit, berhubung males beli bukunya, mahal, hehehe. well, intinya gue suka.

setelah filmnya uda keluar, gue malah pengen baca buku2nya lagi secara detail..

anyways, since pretty much everybody knows about the movie, gue ga bakal ngomong banyak.

yang jelas, gue suka bukunya, dan surprisingly gue juga suka filmnya.

gue rasa cast-nya uda cukup mewakili apa yang dimaksud pengarangnya di dalam bukunya, dan menurut gue itu yang nomer satu paling penting untuk film adaptasi dari buku.

yang nomer dua terpenting, pemotongan ceritanya.

Twilight the book is loooonngggg.

pasti susah banget buat motong ceritanya, but the movie did a pretty good job, i think.

anyways, when i was browsing for the movie posters, i found several versions..

ini official posternya. maaf ya kalo kegedean, males banget gue ngecilinnya, hehehe. cukup oke lah, kan ceritanya si Bella-nya polos sampe jatuh cinta sama vampir segala, jadi ekspresinya Kristen Stewartnya lumayan mewakili ceritanya lah.

gue ga ngerti ni versi poster dari mana, tapi fotonya bagus.. sayang kurang mewakili ceritanya.

yang ini sebenernya not bad menurut gue, cuman kok penempatan bulan-nya agak aneh dan ganggu ya?

not bad, tapi kurang menjual ga sih?

foto2nya sama, tapi penempatannya lebih baik kan?

yang ini fan-made, i don't think it's bad, it's simple and quite nice.

ohhh.. i like this one.. tapi jadi kayak poster film horror ga sih? tapi gue suka ah.. oh wait, this is also fan-made.. nice one.

kok malah jadi ngomongin poster film twilight ya??? oh well. ngomongin film2 lain di post berikutnya aja ya. gue mo makan dulu. hoho.

here you go

since i know you have a bad case of short term memory, i'll stop reminding you and post it here instead. i know you'll eventually read it here anyways.

so here you go.


1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more loving then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feeling sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely getting mad, i'm so glad i found you.
i love being around you.
you make it easy, as easy as 1 2, (1 2 3 4.)

there's only 1 thing 2 do, 3 words 4 you.
i love you (i love you)
there's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do.
i love you (i love you)

give me more loving from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had, i'm so glad that i found you.
i love being around you.
you make it easy, as easy as 1 2, (1 2 3 4.)

there's only 1 thing 2 do, 3 words 4 you.
i love you (i love you)
there's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that's what i'll do.
i love you.

"1234 - plain white t's"


nice words, huh?

two g's, two d's and an a

most excruciating feelings ever:

guilt
when you know you've done something wrong, but can't do anything about it.

grief
when you lose something or someone you love so dearly, but can't do anything about it.

depression
when a big, powerful, black hole eat you up from the insides, but you can't do anything about it.

despair
when you feel your whole world crumble into pieces around you, but you can't do anything about it.

anger
when a fiesty fire burns you from the insides, but you don't know where to escape the excruciating heat.


life works in a very odd and unpredictable mechanism.
no one will truly understand where they're going or what's going to happen, no matter how carefully taken or thoroughly thought or planned our steps in life are.
though many people say that life is unfair, i still do think God is fair. life is fair.

no matter how good a person you try to be, bad things still come and do happen to you.
no matter how bad or evil a person you are, good things also happen to you anyways.
so life is fair. everybody gets the same piece of pie.
what happens is, maybe not everybody likes the flavor of the pie.
maybe some just eat half.
maybe some aren't satisfied enough and take another slice of pie.
maybe some don't eat it at all.
but you still get and deserve that piece of pie, whether you want it or not.
you didn't choose to be born and be alive, did you? but you still got life.

now, my piece of pie feels sour. bitter.
that happens whenever one or more of those two g's, two d's and an a show up.

which one of it is what i encountered with these past few horrible days?
you can take a guess.

not that i would tell the answer. ;)

stuck

ya, gue sedang terjebak. terjebak pada kondisi yang tidak menyenangkan.
ternyata pms dan flu bukan kombinasi yang baik, teman-teman. and i learned that the hard way.
setelah kemaren gue berbete ria akibat pengaruh hormonal, sampe bolos praktikum anatomi karna sakit perut, ehhh skarang perutnya oke, idung meler dan batuk2. hiks.
why God, why??? T_T *ampun Tuhan, ga maksud ngeluh kok.. =)*

soo.. what should a girl do in time of despair?

option 1: study
ayod's thought: booooo... this sucks!

option 2: sleep
ayod's thought: ok, i'll do it.

option 3: ponder on why God bestowed this disturbing illness upon me, and therefore pray for forgiveness
ayod's thought: okay God, of course i'll pray to You whether i'm sick or not.

option 4: read endless comics online
ayod's thought: done!

option 5: ??
ayod's thought: any suggestions, anyone?