sábado, diciembre 19, 2009
what friends are for
khususnya di departemen pertemanan.
dari awalll banget kuliah, gue punya sekelompok temen deket yang selalu bareng2.
seiring berjalannya waktu sampe akhirnya di tahun ketiga ini, banyak yang berubah di kelompok ini.
ada yang dateng, ada yang pergi, ada yang udah pergi tapi balik lagi, dll.
gue merasa teman2 ini lah yang bakal bertahan, suka ato ga, karna mau ga mau kita bakalan satu profesi. kita akan terikat dengan pekerjaan yang sama sampai tua nanti. kita akan saling membutuhkan pendapat yang lain kalo ketemu kasus yang butuh second opinion.
jadi, gue jaga hubungan baik sebisa mungkin. i always try to be nice.
but then, pelan2, muncul sifat asli masing2.
ada yang berubah jd lebih baik, ada yang stagnan sifatnya begitu2 aja.
belakangan ini, pelan-pelan kebersamaan dlm kelompok ini jadi berubah dibanding tahun2 pertama kuliah..
banyak yang sibuk sama kegiatan masing2 yang udah beda2,
ada yang konflik sama temen dlm kelompok ini juga,
ada yang baru gabung,
ada yang pisah,
dll.
but personally, i don't think that it's a bad thing.
justru waktu yang udah lewat ini, dengan berbagai persoalan yang ada, nunjukkin mana yang bener2 teman dan mana yang, well, temen juga sih judulnya, tapi ikatan emosionalnya ga seberapa dalam.
we were all giggly teenagers when we met, and we've all grown up now, jadi seiring tambah dewasa pasti kepribadian kita juga ikut berubah, yang pengaruh ke hubungan kita sama orang lain, apalagi temen.
jujur, gue merasa masih ada temen2 yang berteman masih sama aja kayak dulu waktu sekolah, mau udah kuliah 3 tahun juga.
kalo ada konflik, ngajak2 orang lain buat ikut musuhin.
kalo temen punya konflik sama orang lain, ngompor2in temen itu buat makin musuhan.
kalo ada masalah, kurang bisa milah2 mana yang emang harus diperkarakan dan mana yang harus dilepas aja.
and i'm fed up with that.
apa teman itu cuma orang buat have fun bareng, dan kalo orang itu udah ga bikin fun, ya ga jadi temen?
buat gue, bukan itu artinya.
and so, to avoid all the drama that has happened, i came up with a simple rule for myself.
selama seorang 'teman' ga punya masalah secara pribadi sama gue, i will always stay nice.
i will always help as i can if they need me.
meskipun orang itu musuhan sama temen gue yang lain.
meskipun orang2 bilang temen gue itu bermasalah, bilang gue untuk jauhin dia, dsb.
selama dia ga buat masalah ke gue secara langsung, gue akan berbuat yang sama.
fair-fair-an aja.
if all else fails, yang penting gue tau yang mana yang bener2 temen gue.
and they know who they are.
what friends are for, for me, is an extension of your family.
people who will accept you and help you back up again, how badly you've acted to them or fell.
people who doesn't think of what they can get back by helping you.
people who stand by you but still keeps you in line.
yang lain dari itu, well, they're still called friends.
like in families, it doesn't mean you have to like each and every one of your family members all the time.
sama, walau namanya temen, it doesn't mean you have to like each and every one of them all the time.
liking them most of the time is good enough to be friends for me.
what do friends mean to you?
sábado, septiembre 19, 2009
the big two-oh
sorry i neglected this blog for a while, hehe.
i decided to jump back in to blogging.
because these past time when i wasn't blogging, things were crazy.
and i mean, CRAZY.
last semester of med school was hell.
it was probably the lowest point i ever got to in all those years in school.
thankfully, i didn't fail anything although you can't say my grades are satisfying. oh well. haha.
this year, i decided i have to be more serious and study more.
(although i never really tried studying more, but that's not the point)
so far, i only skipped one class (by "accident", haha) and i really did try to concentrate better in my classes.
i somewhat have a short attention span, and to concentrate in something that is not interesting to me, like.. oh, okay, in biochemistry, it is just murder.
so i try, i do.
anyways.
i turned 20 years old just a couple days ago, on September 16th.
i was at Bandung with my parents and the crew of the culinary TV show my dad is currently hosting.
so right at the midnight of my birthday, they were still shooting an episode.
can't say much about leaving the nineteenth year of my life behind.
i think i made a lot of mistakes throughout last year, some i don't think i'd like to remember at all.
some moments were great though.
like the fact that i passed the worst semester i ever had without failing anything, and actually without studying all that much, was pretty cool. (i'm not proud of it though!)
so.
for the twentieth year of my life, i'd like to:
1. study more because to be a forensic medical doctor would not be easy, and i need to know all i can get in school..
2. read more books, not just all japanese manga..
3. still faithfully collect Baby-Sitters Club books..
4. be more considerate of others..
5. get a good toefl score..
andddd.. that's it for now.
on another topic, eventhough i haven't written stuff for a while, i still like to read other people's blogs.
and i noticed that people tend to have a specific purpose of their blog.
like there's fashion blogs, personal blogs, poetry blogs, art blogs, etc.
i have no idea what the purpose of my blog is.
my mind tends to skip a lot from one thing to another, and i have many different kinds of interests.
but..
i realize that i like to write because it's my way to vent.
maybe other people vent in other ways, like dressing up, making art, making poems, and all that.
but i write.
no matter how useless it looks like.
so.
i don't care if you read this or not.
i like to write, whatever nonsense it is.
hey, i'm 20 now, better do what i like while i still got the chance, right? ;)
by the way, as i write this, the next day will be Lebaran.
as tradition goes, i sincerely apologize for every wrong-doing and mistakes i made this past year.
have a great Lebaran everyone! :)
sábado, diciembre 13, 2008
two g's, two d's and an a
guilt
when you know you've done something wrong, but can't do anything about it.
grief
when you lose something or someone you love so dearly, but can't do anything about it.
depression
when a big, powerful, black hole eat you up from the insides, but you can't do anything about it.
despair
when you feel your whole world crumble into pieces around you, but you can't do anything about it.
anger
when a fiesty fire burns you from the insides, but you don't know where to escape the excruciating heat.
life works in a very odd and unpredictable mechanism.
no one will truly understand where they're going or what's going to happen, no matter how carefully taken or thoroughly thought or planned our steps in life are.
though many people say that life is unfair, i still do think God is fair. life is fair.
no matter how good a person you try to be, bad things still come and do happen to you.
no matter how bad or evil a person you are, good things also happen to you anyways.
so life is fair. everybody gets the same piece of pie.
what happens is, maybe not everybody likes the flavor of the pie.
maybe some just eat half.
maybe some aren't satisfied enough and take another slice of pie.
maybe some don't eat it at all.
but you still get and deserve that piece of pie, whether you want it or not.
you didn't choose to be born and be alive, did you? but you still got life.
now, my piece of pie feels sour. bitter.
that happens whenever one or more of those two g's, two d's and an a show up.
which one of it is what i encountered with these past few horrible days?
you can take a guess.
not that i would tell the answer. ;)
sábado, diciembre 06, 2008
stuck
ternyata pms dan flu bukan kombinasi yang baik, teman-teman. and i learned that the hard way.
setelah kemaren gue berbete ria akibat pengaruh hormonal, sampe bolos praktikum anatomi karna sakit perut, ehhh skarang perutnya oke, idung meler dan batuk2. hiks.
why God, why??? T_T *ampun Tuhan, ga maksud ngeluh kok.. =)*
soo.. what should a girl do in time of despair?
option 1: study
ayod's thought: booooo... this sucks!
option 2: sleep
ayod's thought: ok, i'll do it.
option 3: ponder on why God bestowed this disturbing illness upon me, and therefore pray for forgiveness
ayod's thought: okay God, of course i'll pray to You whether i'm sick or not.
option 4: read endless comics online
ayod's thought: done!
option 5: ??
ayod's thought: any suggestions, anyone?
domingo, noviembre 30, 2008
after a break
atas break sebentar untuk blog ini, gue ga bisa beralasan apa2 selain bahwa ini terjadi karena multifaktor: kemalasan lah, sibuk kuliah lah (padahal gitu2 doang), modem gue kesamber geledek lah (ini beneran terjadi loh)..
sampai akhirnya jumat kemaren gue selesai ujian blok darah - sistem limfatik, dan skarang gue ga ada kerjaan lagi, akhirnya nulis lagi, mehehehehe. (alasan yang payah)
padahal sebenernya banyak sih yang bisa diceritain, apalagi kuliah blok hematop (panggilan sayang buat pelajaran tentang darah).
misalnya aja, kalo praktikum patologi klinik (PK) tu butuh sampel darah, nah itu diambil dari kita2 juga, jadi tusuk2an deh antar temen buat ambil darah, sekalian blajar cara nyuntik yang bener.
ada juga percobaan ngukur masa perdarahan, caranya lengan temen ditahan pake pompa tensi sampe 40mmHg trus tusuk2 deh lengannya sampe berdarah. seru yah! (senyum iblis)
sebenernya gue bingung mau nulis apa skarang.
mau review film, uda banyak banget yang gue tonton sejak terakhir update blog..
mau curhat-curhat tentang kuliah yang seru sekaligus membosankan, males..
ehhhh Tuhan memang Maha Tahu, tiba2 gue dikasih pe-er dari Sekar..
oke deh, gue kerjain..
disini gue harus tulis 10 hal tentang gue dan melemparnya ke orang2 lain.. hm hm..
okay.. about ayodya:
1. kemana-mana bawa jurnal
jurnal gue berbentuk notebook yang halamannya polos bikinan morning glory harganya 13rb klo ga salah (lengkap kan), sebenernya sketch book kali yah, cuma berhubung gue ga bisa gambar, akhirnya buat jurnal.
tentang isi jurnalnya.. yaaa suka2 gue.
kadang cuman curhatan, makian, lagu, gambar (yang kayak gambarnya anak tk)..
kadang kolaborasi sama temen2 gue di sela kelas..
i doodle anything i want in my journal.
suatu hari nanti akan gue turunkan jurnal2 gue yang uda lumayan numpuk ke suami dan anak2 gue.. (ngapain, isinya kbanyakan sampah) mehehehehehe.
2. a very bad procrastinator
gue sering menunda-nunda sesuatu. pengen deh berubah tapi males bener. hehehehe.
kayaknya kalo mepet tuh malah jadi lebih semangat trus inspirasi buat tugas lebih oke gitu. (mengada-ada alasan)
3. tergila-gila rambutan dan jeruk bali
gue bisa abis berbaskom-baskom makan ginian..
sebenernya gue suka makan buah apa aja, KECUALI duren dan alpukat. ugh.
4. ga terlalu suka makan daging
biasanya yang tau cuman kluarga dan temen2 deket gue aja.
gue makan banyak tapi sebenernya gue ga terlalu suka makan daging, khususnya ayam.
kalo makan daging pun gue ga bisa banyak2.
gue cuman suka daging kalo di lasagna (makanan favorit gue!), bistik bikinan nyokap gue, pizza. udah.
sisanya, kalo gue makan bakso, sate, itu sebenernya karna terpaksa aja. hehe.
5. suka chatting sama pacar dan kakak
Ichsan Diaz is the cutest being that ever lived and i don't want to hear any nonsense that say otherwise. hahahaha. banyak kesamaan dan banyak juga perbedaan gue sama dia, so it's always fun to talk to him and he always has something interesting to say.
ah kalo giliran gini aja gue bagus2 ngomong tentang dia, kalo kesel gue tonjok2in. hahaha.
sementara, my older brother is really really smart but weird at the same time, so it's always fun and interesting to talk with him too.
6. suka gerak tapi pemalas
nah lo, bingung ga tuh. gue suka gerak and do outdoor things, tapi gue juga sering males ngapa2in. hehehe. yaaa kayak gue suka karate, tapi gue males perginya buat latian di dojo. hehe.
7. suka seni tapi ga bakat
gue tau gue skarang lagi kuliah buat jadi dokter, trus ntar pengennya jadi dokter forensik. tapi sebenernya kalo gue diberkahi dengan bakat seni, gue pasti bakal lebih milih buat ngelukis, jadi fotografer, design something, main piano dan violin, koki pastry dan jadi tukang review film. tapi Tuhan memberi gue bakat yang lain, entah itu apa itu, sampe akhirnya skarang gue terseret arus kehidupan tiba2 jadi calon dokter (moga2, amin).
8. ga bisa belanja baju
duh gue bener2 ga bakat buat belanja baju. harus ditemenin. khususnya nyokap dan temen2 cewe. kalo ga gue bener2 ga pede buat beli baju sendiri. kebanyakan baju gue dipilihin nyokap, ato kalo beli sendiri itu dipilihan temen2. payah ya. hehehe.
apalagi kalo pake nawar2, aduh nyerah gue.
entah apa jadinya gue sebagai ibu rumah tangga. mehehehe.
9. suka bau rumah sakit dan supermarket
entah kenapa gue suka aja. bikin tenang.
aneh ya? bodo ah.
10. tahan begadang tapi tahan tidur juga
gue tahan begadang berhari-hari, tapi bisa juga gue tidur sampe 15 jam ato lebih (kayak mati suri). sleep cycle gue se-moody gue. hehe.
sebenernya masih banyak sih, tapi yaudahlah, cuman disuruh 10. hehe.
ok, pe-er ini akan gue lempar ke:
1. kakak Nita
2. mas Suryo
3. Meizy
4. Ary Inyong
5. Dian Dhay
udah ah ga usah banyak2. =D
sábado, septiembre 27, 2008
menunggu sahur
bete juga sih, baru mulai puasa lagi ehhh uda mau selesai.
i couldn't sleep yet, jadi akhirnya nunggu aja sahur sekalian..
hari ini gue nonton Laskar Pelangi bareng Ichsan, nyokap dan tante Yanti temennya nyokap.
arrrggghh ga nemu poster filmnya, yasudalaya.
anyways, filmnya tentang 10 anak miskin Belitung yang sekolah di SD Muhammadiyah.
selama 5 tahun, cuma mereka murid sekolah bobrok itu, dengan guru2 yang berdedikasi tetep ngajar mereka meski kondisi pas2an.
jujur sih gue blom begitu baca novelnya, baru sekilas2 aja.
abis nonton film ini, gue jadi kepengen baca.
bagus lhoo bagus..
4,5 bintang dari 5 deh..
sebenernya bisa lebih, tapi kok endingnya kurang greget gitu ya rasanya..
yang jelas ekspresi anak2nya keren2 banget. ceritanya juga bagus.
duh bingung mo nulis apa lagi.
bentar lagi lebaran, abis itu masuk kuliah lagi, UJIAN.
TIDAKKKK..
GA MAUUUU..
huhuhuhuhuhhuhu
domingo, septiembre 21, 2008
good week

jueves, septiembre 18, 2008
nice nineteen!
yang jaket kamen rider itu kado dari Ichsan, hehehehe.. yang baju coklat itu dari temen2..
overall, makasih buat semuanya yang uda bikin ultah ke-19 ini jadi heboh hepi ceria yeyyeyyey..
Mama - Daddy, mas Ditto - Vitra yang uda nelpon, Chita - Ipung, Meizy yang tiba2 dateng, keluarga besar Bukafe yang terlalu banyak kalo disebutin satu2 hehehehe, orang2 rumah..
kak Mury, Katsuya, Lee, Pak..
Ichsan Isan Dakochan..
Adyt, Fian, Dina, Fiba, Dara, Audrey, Sano, Asta, Buti, Dafy, Mea, Mahisa, Nana, Gigon, Mumu, Alay, Nonny.. makasih uda jauh2 dateng ya.. =)
temen2 dan orang2 yang uda nelpon, sms, comment friendster, wall facebook -- mengucapkan selamat, trima kasih banyak! =)
for all of you, my humble gratitude with love and prayers..
martes, agosto 26, 2008
biomedics, wall-e, and wii
ga bisa bilang banyak sih tentang ujiannya.. pasrah. hehehe.
yang pasti, makasih banget ya dok buat kisi2 anatomi perkembangannya..
ngebantuuuuu bangettt!! *nahan muntah*
untuk sisanya, let's just say i'll never be good in chemistry anyway so i have no idea why i should bother with it. hahaa.
on a lighter note, gue dan *okay, who else* Ichsan nonton Wall-E..!!!
oooohhhh i just love it..
it hardly has any talking but it's really meaningful..

jadi, ceritanya ada robot namanya Wall-E, tugasnya ngebersihin sampah2 di bumi karna semua manusianya uda pindah ke pesawat luar angkasa karna bumi terlalu penuh sampah.
sampe akhirnya ada robot lain yang namanya Eve yang dateng ke bumi buat nyari bukti kalo bumi uda layak huni lagi.
Wall-E jatuh cinta sama Eve.
trus ngasih dia tunas taneman yang dia temuin waktu lagi beresin sampah.
tunas itu jadi bukti kalo bumi uda layak huni dan manusia uda bisa balik.
tapi sayangnya manusia yang ada di pesawat yang namanya Axiom itu uda terbiasa tergantung sama teknologi sampe semua orangnya obesitas gitu karna cuma duduk doang ga ngapa2in. jalan juga ga pernah.
manusia-nya uda males buat balik lagi ke bumi karna uda enak di luar angkasa, padahal bumi itu ada buat dipelihara..
gitu deh. bagus pokoknya.. hohoho..
4,5 stars out of 5..
next time, waiting for.. Madagascar 2 sama Hellboy 2..
kalo ada lagi yang bagus dan layak tunggu ato layak tonton, kasih tau ya! mumpung masih libur nih.. =)
oh by the way, Ichsan si dakochan lagi sakit.. cupcup.. kasiannn..
cepet sembuh yaa 'Chan.. abis itu kita nonton2 lagi.. hehehe.
miss ya.. =)
other news, Mama lagi beduaan skarang di jepang bareng kakak gue..
and my brother just bought a PS3!!
gue berusaha ngebujuk supaya nitendo wii-nya dibawa pulang kesini aja, berhubung uda ada ps3, tapi dia ga mau.. huhuhuhhu..
luckily, Mama nyobain wii-nya dan katanya seru, trus jadi tertarik mo beliin. HOHOHOHO..
senang riang..
so in the future, kalo gue tiba2 ngilang jarang update blog, kemungkinan besar uda ada nitendo wii and i'll be too busy playing around with it. hehehehehe..
cross your fingers, people! =)
lunes, julio 28, 2008
dooh..
jueves, julio 17, 2008
kebetean online

domingo, julio 13, 2008
a pleasant ordinary saturday

jueves, julio 10, 2008
a too long nap can cost you
apakah ini sebenernya cuman pelarian gue dari belajar buat her? =D
besok hari terakhir her infeksi dan penyakit tropik, ujiannya jam 1 ajah makanya gue masi melek. hehe.
lagian tadi gue ditelantarin di kosannya Ichsan mpe jam 8an gitu baru dijemput. huhu.
karna ga dijemput-jemput makanya gue jadi tidur siang-sore dengan berlebihan. hahahaha.
mpe Juan dan Gigon bilang, "yaampun ayod tiap kesini kerjaannya tidurrrr doang.."
hahaha. maap yaa.
anyway, not much is going on now..
tapi yang menyenangkan tadi uda pengumuman her blok imun, dan gue lulus!
yipiiiee! =)
ah, well, i think i'm off for the night.
coba tidur ahh. hehe.
martes, julio 08, 2008
oh life

filmnya oke oke.. boleh boleh.. walau gue dan Ichsan nahan ngantuk karna uda malem.. haha.
overall, 3,5 bintang dari 5! hehe.
film selesai jam 11! padahal besok paginya gue masi her skill lab, hehehe..
gila, gading uda gelap banget. keluar lewat pintu biasa juga uda ditutup. akhirnya keluar lewat pintu lain, trus duduk2 di deket trotoar depan mkg 3, nunggu dijemput.
overall, karna itu hari pertama ketemu setelah seminggu, whatever happened felt GREAT anyway! =)
sábado, julio 05, 2008
thankful or suicidal?
tanggal 30 juni 2008, bertepatan dengan ulang tahun kakanda mas Ditto dan istri Vitra *iya, mereka ultahnya barengan*, gue berangkat ke Singapore dengan rombongan bersepuluh orang2 kantornya nyokap dan bokap..
seperti biasa, when something good happens in my life, something absolutely horrendous will follow right behind it.
dan itu terjadi lagi.
tepat di hari keberangkatan, yang seharusnya jadi awal sebuah liburan 4 hari yang membahagiakan, terusik oleh kabar dari seorang teman bahwa:
GUE HER SKILL LAB.
dan hari her-nya belom jelas kapan.
oh great.
yaa berhubung hotel dan tiket pp uda kebayar semua, ga mungkin gue tiba2 ga jadi pergi.
*pembenaran diri*
seriously, ga mungkin aja gitu.
sooo gue meredam panik, dan berharap ini semua mimpi buruk yang akan berakhir begitu gue sampe negeri orang.
but still, buat jaga2 gue bilang ke nyokap.
dannn seperti biasa, berhubung sifat santai itu genetis, nyokap pun menanggapinya dengan santai..
mungkin pikirannya, "anak gue, remed? hal biasaaa.."
maka, setelah sempet ym-an sebentar sama sang kakak di lab kampusnya dan istrinya yang katanya lagi ujian di lab kampusnya *tapi sempet2nya ym-an? hmm* untuk mengucapkan selamat ulang tahun untuk mereka berdua, berangkatlah gue ke Singapore..
nyampe sana uda malem, jadi ga kemana-mana.
nginepnya di link hotel, tiong bahru road.
makan malem steamboat deket hotel, trus ngopi2 *strawberry smoothie for me* di kafe deket hotel juga.
besoknya, ke sentosa island.
i wasn't that excited to go to sentosa, cause all i really wanted to do at Singapore was buy books i can't find in Indonesia. haha.
tapi yaa ngikut juga.
naik MRT abis itu naik cable car ke sentosa-nya.
kayaknya gara2 2 minggu di Jepang yang jalur keretanya ribetnya minta ampun, kemaren langsung fasih naik MRT yang simpel jalur2nya. hehe.
anyway, di sentosa pergi ke underwater world, which i have been to, so no surprise there.
abis underwater world, cineblast.
and it was actually a blast.. quite fun! =)
abis cineblast, nonton 4D..
not bad.. but i liked cineblast better.. =D
dari sentosa ke chinatown..
karna dapet tiket gratis chinatown heritage center, mampir situ..
dari chinatown ke orchard.
dan akhirnya ketemu sama Ijah! yey! =D
next day..
menerima kabar kalo her skill lab-nya hari kamis, tanggal 3 juli.
padahal gue baru balik hari jumat, tanggal 4!
oh this is just great..
but, got a lot of great books anyway..
next day..
menerima kabar kalo gue ga ikut her hari ini, gue harus ikut yang taun depan..
oh GREAT.
next day..
bokap ultah!
we went home.
dan di pesawat gue dilanda sakit perut yang teramat sangat karena masalah wanita..
gile, jarang2 sesakit itu loh!
bete banget!
overall,
1. i got almost, and actually more than, got what i expected to get at Singapore..
2. ..which is a bunch of books i'm totally crazy about
3. the trip put my parents in a great mood and you can never be too depressed when your parents are happy.
4. i got souvenirs for my friends, which i hope they'll like.
5. i got to meet one my greatest friends ever, Ijah while i was there.
AND
bokap gue bilang doi yang bakal ngomong ke dosen gue perkara her skill lab itu.
and i suspect, kalo tetep ga boleh, my dad will be hopping mad about it.
just when i THOUGHT i was nearly suicidal due to the fact that i almost flunked myself out of college cause i missed a measley remedial, which i was stupid enough to have in the first place, my dad comes to save the day *or coming, cause we came back on the weekend, jadi baru bisa ngomong sama dosennya minggu depan* and i really did get more than i expected.
sooo..
despite the fact that i may be in deep academic trouble, i guess i really should be thankful.
"karena, sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.
sungguh, bersama kesulitan itu ada kemudahan."
God is so true.
=D