42

Those who are dead are not dead

They’re just living in my head

And since I fell for that spell I am living there as well

Oh..

Time is so short and I’m sure

There must be something more

You thought you might be a ghost

You thought you might be a ghost

You didn’t get to heaven but you made it close

You didn’t get to heaven but you made it close

42 - Coldplay

udah punya lagu ini beberapa lama di iTunes gue, tapi kemaren pas nonton C.S.I. season baru, lagu ini jadi lagu pembukanya gitu.

pas banget sm adegannya, orang2 di bis kayak pada pulang kerja, tampang2nya cape. KEREEEENNNN.

skarang gue lagi ngerjain proposal sama tugas PBL (jadi sekretaris, lagi2, hmmff)..

oke, ga kerasa beban sih, ga pengen ngeluh juga, tapi OH MANNNN..

i'm so stumped!!

bener2 lagi ga terinspirasi buat nulis apa2an, masa bikin tujuan di proposal aja gue bingung mo berkata-kata manis macem apa.

akhirnya nyetel iTunes kenceng2 berharap termotivasi, ujung2nya malah browsing ga jelas.

ahhh.. memang hidup ini.. penuh godaan.

besok masuk jam 7 pagi, skarang jam stengah 10 dan gue belom mandi lho.. *nada bangga yg aneh*

padahal rambut udah lengket begini.. *klarifikasi: bukan karna gue jorok, tadi siang emang panas banget!*

doakan tugas2 gue selesai yaaaa..

*pergi ke pojokan dan nangis merenungi nasib*

lagi2 racauan aneh

hmm.. blog ini sempet ditelantarkan untuk sementara, maaf maaf.
not much to say why; let's just say i hit an uninspiring period of my life.

semester 3 gue udah berakhir, sebenernya dengan kurang memuaskan sih, mehehehe.
i felt like i lost reason of being there and trying.
jadi usaha gue setengah2 gitu.
moga2 sih semester 4 kinerja belajar gue (halah) bisa membaik, amin.

pasti ada lah alesan Allah menetapkan nasib gue di jurusan ini, entah apa alesan itu.
so, i shouldn't be complaining.
i just had a rough semester, and i'm moving forward from it.
hopefully better.
HAS to be better.
i gotta DO better.

sigh.

lagian kalo gue ga di jurusan gue yang skarang, mo masuk apaan lagi gue?
seni: jelas2 ga bakat.
ekonomi: HALAH! ini lebih2 ga bakatnya.
fisip: i avoid any future career that my parents were in.
sastra: hello. i couldn't even learn spanish properly. and people say spanish is supposed to be easy if you can do english!
teknik: i so suck at physics!
fmipa: i'm probably only passably good in biology, i suck at the other sciences.

ya ya, gue tau gue slalu bilang kalo cita2 gue jadi ahli forensik, i just didn't thought that i'd have to be a medical doctor first.
tapi orang2 bilang jadi dokter tu kuncinya rajin baca aja, dan baca cepet dan banyak tu mungkin satu2nya bakat yang gue punya, jadi main pede aja gue masuk kedokteran. (gue tau ini alasan yang aneh)

let me tell you something now.

the journey to become a doctor totally sucks!
no pain, no gain, literally!
apaan tuh kalo orang bilang gengsi masuk kedokteran, itu mah buat nyeneng2in dan nyemangatin diri sendiri biar siksaannya ga begitu kerasa. =D
no wonder some doctors lose their compassion along the way, they must've lost it in their educational years.

anyways.

tetep harus semangat!

ga usah mikirin nanti bisa nyelametin nyawa2 orang, yang penting ga DO juga udah cihui!
God, you must have SOME reason you put me here, this is the (probably) right path for me!

semester 4, i'm coming!

but of course i have to take a break.
i appreciate immensely this short vacation.
i get to sleep in!
you know how i hate waking up so early.
and i get to sit around at home doing nothing!
you know how i love doing that.
(ujung2nya tetep setia pada kemalasan)